The Common American Christian

I'm saved, but I'm a sinner and I can only sin 70 times 7 which is a limit to my sins which adds up to 490 times of how many times you have to forgive me for my madness; when God's love is lasting, forever lasting which means that there is no limit to his love and yet hell is made for people who have sinned too much and will be made to burn in eternity forever without a chance for forgiveness..

 I'm a saint, but I am also a sinner too in the same; but hey, don't you dare call me a hypocrite because that would be a lie! Last I was told my bible said that there is a gray area I can play in....I would not know because I never read it until I go to church and even then, I only follow behind someone else reading it to me as I follow his voice while looking at the words that I can understand myself. I allow my pastah to be an authority over my mind despite of how he looks at my wife and daughter. I listen to what he says and thinks because he is a reflection of Jeeeeesus! I quote scriptures in every conversation people try to have with me because I have not a mind of my own to hold an intelligent conversation. I am a "Parrot" and swank scriptures instead of honestly expressing myself!

 I have no mind of my own because I am told that my mind is detrimental if I use it in any area in my life even though I need it to understand what my pastah say. I am told that my bible is all that I need, even though it is contaminated with lies, inconsistencies in all of the 4 books written by men who were not there to see the resurrection and contradictions, glittering omissions, mythologies and fairy tales. I am supposed to acknowledge God in my ways even though i was given the gift of intelligence from God, and that is why I wait for what my pastors says, instead of communicating with God myself because my pastah is always right even though I am lost and confused as hell and am always coming to chuch with defeatist testimonies from the past week of being beat down by another god that I serve in pleasure and fear called the Devil who I am not supposed to ever acknowledge of having any power over me; you know, because the lawd is the head of my life. At least, that's what I'm supposed to say opening my testimonies every Sundeh.

 I am saved and right always because I am Christian, even though Jesus never left a religion behind called Christianity telling His followers to call themselves Christians instead of Disciples as he said is a only and must in Matthew 10:42. Last I checked it was His enemies who called them that? You know...Rome? I guess that's why I am calling myself an American even though He said His kingdom is not of this world. So,,,,I choose Barabbas over Him as I did in the past during the trial and become a Roman/American Christian? Yeah that feels good:) That's democracy fo's sho!

 Oh, okay, so I guess its okay to call myself something that came from the mentality of the enemy of my loving savior, instead of remaining what He told me I was to Him; because I do love Him that much you know. Yep, feels gooooood. I's an American! This explains some of my hypocrisy and attitude towards humanity as a whole. Hey! Lets follow behind Roman ways and go bomb some innocent nations and call everyone else terrorist to get our freedom even though we already have freedom through the blood of Jesus and continue to claim that no weapon formed against us will prosper!!!!! 

So, I am Christian and you are wrong always because you are not a Christian, so "Na, Na, Na, Na, Na, you going to hell for sure motha fucka, even though I live in a hell of confusion everyday and allll daaaay loooong! Just look at my children and my marriage wherever they are! But, ya know. I will be judged one day to see "IF" I was right enough to get into the kingdom because, I am not sure if I am right, even though I say that you are wrong, because I need to feel good and secure about myself while I aim to make you feel like shit because that is Christ-Like. I just "believe" I will get in, but do not know for sho, even though I say that my religion is the only way to the kingdom, even though those before me who died never came back from the dead to confirm it so I just believe, I really don't know, fo sho!

 So, even though I am right with no proof, even in my actions towards humanity, I still will be judged to see if I am right indeed after my complete submission and dedication to my westernized religion given to my ancestors by their slave masters, even after disregarding the existence of my family and friends, because this is indeed holy and I am all that and a bag of salted peanuts. I'm covered in the blood, and have no idea what that really means and Jesus died for all of my sins and I can do what ever I want and am forgiven even if I sin more than 490 times, but I still have to repent of my sins so I will get into the kingdom, even though I said they were covered by Jesus already to get me in because I refused to listen to Him when He told me to go and sin "No More!" I would rather use the "I am only Human" excuse.. and I am not perfect even though to be Christ-like means to be as Jesus was, who was perfect, even though I am not, but I am Christ-like. "As a man thinketh, so is he." So, I think and say I am a saint, and so I am, so there. But I "know" I am a sinner, so I guess I am one of those too because it gives me a sense of satisfaction when I am faced with doing the right thing or watching porn or adding women to my Facebook who pose in their panties or nude. I am a saint in chuch and a sinner after church because I thinketh I am, so I am. Uh.................

David Anthony Brayboy