Thank you for staying with me

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I have always known You were there, because you are here. I knew that You have always been there inside of me, showing me all that You created and are creating each day You allowed me to live, to see. I was sent to a place built by the hands of men who claimed to know You and was only taught a false identity of what and who You are.

I searched outwards for years and sent my prayer energy, my thoughts and my desires to the heavens above, instead of where You have forever been, and that is inside of me, inside of my heart, mind and soul which is that place of where my life truly began. I love you for your existence and not for anything materialistic that You have allowed me to posses:) Those things, those possessions are truly nothing. But, You? You are all and all and beyond:) You are permanant:)

I listened to others who are said to be in the position for me to know and to learn of You. I allowed them to stand over my mind. They gave me explanations, contradictions, lies and blunt fairy tales and I, in expecting to accept them, truly inside disregarded them in a quieting manner because I felt that there was something more broader than what they were saying and from what I was seeing in terms of example. But, I loved You, still:) I knew that You were vast than that. I knew they were trying to place You in a box of doctrines and a book with a first and last page, when nothing or no one can truly contain You.

I sought and found nothing in religions, no peace or content of mind. I asked and got no answers. Until that day, You awakened me to no longer be irresponsible asking others, and to allow “You” to reveal Yourself to me from within. Yes, a place inside of where You truly dwell, live, move and guide me. You taught me of how to love, to listen, to understand. to be intelligent and to be used for wisdom without claiming its root. You are Generous and Kind:)

I felt and seen my mind break out of the chains and the bondage of religion and doctrine by what You revealed to me; a place You have never rested, but a place that constantly claims You and yet advocate division, lust, greed, warfare and tyranny. I know that You are not of these things brought about by the enemy of Your Desire. I see and feel Your strength and understand this day that a human beings strength, is not in his or her wealth, but in the ability to remain in humility regardless of their status in life:) I love you:) You are life giving and life saving in the same movement:) You are my best friend:)

You in Your generosity had liberated me from an anger that was consuming me in my youth because of all of the abuse from my peers and family and a misunderstanding of the world. You slowly set me free and I have forever been grateful that it has been a slow journey and not a fast one. You showed me that "slowly" is more better and profound; and I listened attentively:) You are The Master Teacher:) No one can match You:) Oh, how I love You so:)

Now this day, I stand still and stretch my hands, my arms, my heart and mind out to You in saying in all manners of my existence, “Thank you for saving me from myself in showing me of how to respond to this life!” I thank you humbly in dying every second of my existence so that I may live more abundantly:) I thank You for taking away the fear by showing me the intention and face of fear. You are all of the moments in my existence because without Your Presence, there is only death:) I thank You for staying with me:) I thank You for Living inside of me. I thank You for showing me that I do not have to look outwards or pray outwards to You...You have forever been inside me; and that is where my love will go unto You:) You are Beautiful and Revealing:) I love you Truly:)


David Anthony Brayboy

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