Within Those Darkest Times You are Present

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I am here this day. I need for You to understand of how much I love You and of how it becomes painful and frustrating not to have the knowing of how to love You more, because of knowing that there is a level past the beyond, to go.

Divine, The Kind One, I have seen in the manner of which You have brought me through the storm that contained those in whom I love to be unjust towards me; and You have in the healing of your gift of time, dried the tears of my eyes and have cause within me humility which implied, that I have been healed within and the inner sorrows have fled my spirit, never touching to core of my being.

Within the darkest hours of my mind and emotions, You have continued to shine Your Light through the dark clouds of evil and deception against me and have smiled down within me and loved me a feeling of peace and humanity. I have seen/felt the profound wisdom in embracing its counsel.

Within my hurt and anger, You never caused/agreed me to continue forwards with thoughts and feelings that are destructive inside of me, that You knew would hurt others as well as my own being, because You created me with a strong and yet sensitive mind, carrying an authentic and delicate conscience and consciousness, that will not allow these things to exist inside of it for to soon work into manifestation.

There has always been an familiar, a timeless feeling there, that paused me with a calming state and easily embraced because it is liberating without comparison. Even during those hours, those times of my own duality, I love you for the understanding of those conflicting entities that I observe and learn of, because in the end, Your clarity always wins. You save me from my “Self:)”

I found and embraced the fact that, there has forever been Your Timeless Presence inside of me; truly inside of the soul in which loves and will exist in righteousness in spite if I am removed from it, because of self-destruction. The reality of that “so pure” fear of looking at my essence from outside of it, and realizing that I am no longer a part of it, because it continues to live and function in the nature that You created it, is the true death. The Absence of Your Presence is the ultimate and true terror here. It can only be in my seeing, being conscious of my own non-existence because I have, in the actions against that same humanity, have been opposing.

I know that “Time” is the gift. I am of time and time is of me. I move with it to be brought to increasing evolving realities for the sake of something I am pleased to never know absolutely because You are Sacred. But, there is present a love for living, a love for You. Yes Great Divine, a love that carry’s me forwards and into the beautiful new. I thank You for allowing me to see these truths in Your Love in revealing them to me.


David Anthony Brayboy

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