The Fall Season

Growing up in Chicago Illinois I have always loved the Fall season. I thought that it was a beautiful time to live in. The weather is not too hot nor too cold. And the wind was not too high nor to low. And the leaves upon the trees would slowly begin to change in colors very slowly as they would prepare for embracing their departure of being ordained to go back to the earth.

As I came into adulthood, I would come to find out that people are as this in there coming and going from your life as they fall off of the death of the time in your life. They fall off for whatever reasons and the winds of life would carry them in their destined direction for them to fulfill what is ordained for them to fulfill.

I found in being still and observing the function of Fall without trying to determine/control its movement, but just observing and allowing the function of Fall to reveal to me of its nature, and I came to understand that I was the tree with the branches and those leaves were experiences of my life, that would eventually place me in the position to my having to see people in my life fall away after a season and be taken away by their destined winds as I would also be a leaf in their lives.

I always thought/felt that the colors of the leaves as they were leaving were their most beautiful time, even though it is considered a time of death for them. But, in seeing the reality of death for myself in its beauty, and no longer allowing others to tell me of how to perceive it, I would one day take a leaf in my hand and into the home and watched it attentively under the light upon my small desk besides my bed under my lamp. I noticed the colors that were so beautiful in contrast with the greenish red in becoming a pale looking strawberry brown, which also was very beautiful. I saw that the transmission of death was in itself a beautiful movement.

My uncle Keefe Kelly would come into my room and noticed of what I was doing; and he brought me in a plastic sandwich bag and told me that if I place a leaf inside of it and place it under the light of my lamp, that it would last longer because of the heat and the moisture that the plastic bag would produce in time. The next day I did that. I saw that he was very correct as he was in many things:) This gave me that chance to witness the beauty even longer and yet, I still understood that it was still making its transition because of its nature and nothing was able to be done to end it. I learned of that the principal of preservation and the love and care that it takes to execute that is a sensitive task; and also the divine power of nature taking its course in spite of our efforts to preserve whatever we set our attentions too. That's the reality. I saw and understood the function of the doctor to his or her patient. And also the ordain time of when The Creator decrees death upon the natural.

I come to know and understand that people are as this within this life function. We all branch off and fall away and go our separate ways. I felt that in my learning this at such an early age, it has helped me not to get attached to people as much as the common person seems too. I observed this of my inner being as I first left Chicago and went to Edinburgh Indiana to Job Corps. I understand that as long as people are in your life at the time, you should embrace them fully and individually while you can because as I also noticed of falling leaves, I was never able to determined of when either one that I concentrated on would fall off to the earth to begin their journey away despite of the wind blowing strong or softly.

I have had plenty of high winds and times of when I was unjustly plucked from other peoples lives by close evil forces and yet, I am able to move forwards and into the new, because in spite of my being able to love others strongly, I am able to let go as easily as well, because I know that the reality of life, there is a imbued law that demands it and governs it and to not accept it, destroys the integrity and intelligence of the mind and spirit in many forms. To move forwards with your life along with what the Creator has for you, may not be clearly understood my others who were once close to you who may feel that you have become cold or eccentric; but, in some cases it should be absolutely understood considering that there are some who have a great deal to do with the path that The Creator has placed you upon with determination and compassion that was rooted in evil. They were made to be the books that in my experiences, I have read very well.

In some instances, The Creator will use those close in your life to help shape you into what you are destined to know and to do for other people lives to help them understand what they are going through and feeling. And yet, in the same instances, these are people who were only destined for that season and to never touch your life again due to the fact, that they were also being used of the beast for to help shape you, but where not allowed to destroy you because of The Creator's Divine Intervention upon your life in regards to time. But, there will become a time in the truth of justice, of when they will be asked by The Creator, “Why was I “Able” to use you, for in order to shape him?”

Is that a question being asked of The All Knowing and The All Wise Creator?” No, the question is placed inside of the human being for to ask themselves of why, when they are made in time to reflect upon their position of who and what they were supposed to be to you. Why was hate their primary function against you, when you showed them nothing but love in trying to be and therefore fulfill your natural position to them as a brother, a son and other positions meant to be expressed by The Creator. But, because of their death in that area, you never were to enjoy their presence as such ordained. They were simply a chapter of your life, inside of the book of your life journey. Let those leaves die, fall off and wither away. Those books are sealed and burned.

I always asked The Creator to never see fit to be able to use me upon an evil principal and act, for to shape someone else for the good. I have been grateful to have gone though this life as I have been made in spite of being seen as a complex man because they try to determine a living human beings time of when he stops growing based upon their own implication of what is a proper status of character. It is always vital to understand that as long as we are living human beings, we are growing, moving and changing human beings as we are also dying in its profound beauty. And the moment anyone determines that they have no more need for growth and change and they have it all together, then they have truly lost everything.

David Anthony Brayboy