The Journey Beyond Being Content of Being Alone

I am often asked, “do you ever get lonely” and my response has always been a, no. I have forever been content within my own company rather what is said of being happy or sad. Most people who are writers are very content being what is called, alone because we understand something past the common understanding of what is asserted to be alone. Some mistakenly fail to understand the distinction of being lonely and being within a state isolation. In the past while not in understanding, I isolated myself from others in facing my pain and curiosities of not only why my pains were caused, but of how upon my own part did I in some manner cause them for myself. Myself had become the primary question.

I were to understand that no matter who did what, I am responsible for being conscious of decisions that are wise for to not allowing myself to be lead into situations that were not good for my peace of being, even though to begin to reach this degree of understanding, there must be pain and joy to transpire to be placed into the position inside to question this self-produced dilemma. Just to simply be attentive in paying attention in humility and not anxiety, is the key; and the negation of the images of how things should be and move forwards “with” reality in oneness. This state of being is far from being intellectual and observant simply with the eyes; but to be one with your purpose as the earth turns without effort nor thoughts of turning or having to obey to turn. To therefore, respond even beyond the common knowledge that one should or supposed to turn by the influence of an authority presence. I know that this is all purpose. It is simply without a sense of excitement by past influences or the illusion of the future, of being present. It's not anything deep nor enveloped into being a complicated matter.

In meditation tonight I was shown/felt a state that is far more free than even the perception of being alone. This was not embraced as a source of perception of what is moving me; and so I was not carrying anything. This was clearly a love that was present and alive. Alone is said to mean “all one” as in having not the need for anyone or thing. But, this still implies the company of others as a fact of them being “thought” to be either near or far. It's still within memory; and so the definition still implies isolation in being made separated from others by choice without being angry, frustrated or disappointed in the course of human relationship. The choice in this rigorous manner reveals an inner reaction that is violence triggered by a thought and memory in which holds pain and anger as well as fear because of an issue that is unresolved because one is hurt and afraid to be harmed again. Also it means to end or to suspend relationships with people in general for a time that is still thought and felt to be unknown of when one will allow those relationships to continue.

Complete oneness within the essence of purpose is a movement without feeling as though you are being moved by a force known and yet unknown in its fullness. You come to realize that all of what you feel, know, come to know, and will come to know is all fusion into purpose, your existence as one with existence. This oneness with existence includes everyone and everything Created by the Author of Presence as it is. The tremendous presence of the energy/reality of existence. In coming to realize this tonight, there could never be loneliness once anyone holds this truth inside as a reality and not simply something someone wrote or said that sounded interesting. It is much more personal and inward than that. There is something happening within time of when the very essence of the human family are suddenly asking questions based upon not feeling free. Freedom is inside and is now demanding that those who truly need it with their very essence, their souls must look inside for to realize it and therefore to consciously obtain it as a state of being for everyday living.

David Anthony Brayboy