Survive The Pain
Based upon an important and in-dept phone conversation I had with Alexyss K. Tylor on 8/21/2016
This is a symbolic image of a feeling of deep betrayal. It is easy to say that this is based upon a hurt felt inside and that would be true. But, is the hurting the real matter in this type of experience? Or is it the ability to survive the betrayal of such an event? I mention numerous times that there is no healing without hurting, because the hurting is an indication that a healing is in fact taking place inside of the human being. The endurance of the time within the healing is most vital as it will either lead to your internal survival or a death inside of your mind and heart. A moral death of where the other human being who you assert has taken your heart out of its structured place for to love, has caused it to no longer function sufficiently for a time coming of where you are enable to love without the fear of being hurt again.
I found in my personal journey that the real challenge in my living was always of the way that I allow the experiences of my life affect my thinking and therefore my further perceptions and thus my responses towards others who are destined to venture into my life. I found that in having a will to understand past my pains, it was revealed that “understanding” upon an entire aspect is what accompanied me with enough perception and therefore humility to know that there were mistakes that I made to bring this type of hurt upon myself including in my ignorance of not knowing certain aspects of life; and also those who have helped caused this hurt, were also victims themselves of a hurting, dysfunctional past in which could only bring about hurt of others. And, most importantly, "never allow yourself to love anyone with such a love that you lack loving yourself." Giving someone else your heart/life force is just that. You give them your entire life force. No one deserves that much power over you and your life force.
This is a symbolic image of a feeling of deep betrayal. It is easy to say that this is based upon a hurt felt inside and that would be true. But, is the hurting the real matter in this type of experience? Or is it the ability to survive the betrayal of such an event? I mention numerous times that there is no healing without hurting, because the hurting is an indication that a healing is in fact taking place inside of the human being. The endurance of the time within the healing is most vital as it will either lead to your internal survival or a death inside of your mind and heart. A moral death of where the other human being who you assert has taken your heart out of its structured place for to love, has caused it to no longer function sufficiently for a time coming of where you are enable to love without the fear of being hurt again.
I found in my personal journey that the real challenge in my living was always of the way that I allow the experiences of my life affect my thinking and therefore my further perceptions and thus my responses towards others who are destined to venture into my life. I found that in having a will to understand past my pains, it was revealed that “understanding” upon an entire aspect is what accompanied me with enough perception and therefore humility to know that there were mistakes that I made to bring this type of hurt upon myself including in my ignorance of not knowing certain aspects of life; and also those who have helped caused this hurt, were also victims themselves of a hurting, dysfunctional past in which could only bring about hurt of others. And, most importantly, "never allow yourself to love anyone with such a love that you lack loving yourself." Giving someone else your heart/life force is just that. You give them your entire life force. No one deserves that much power over you and your life force.
The environment in an upbringing is most important to be filled with love so that the human being will not grow up with a void inside that is in need for fulfilling in trying to seek to fill that void through other human beings. The lacking of love in such an environment can only produce a human being who is made love sick; which will result in entering many relationships that are not good for them in seeking a love that was never felt. So, the journey of growing to love yourself is placed before you after such hurting times and healing. This is when the beautiful journey is placed before you. If the healing is allowed by the host, then there is a time coming of understanding the vitality of love in its purity for the self in not making the mistake simply because you have not had a loving environment in your upbringing, to seek that love in other people in a form of dependency and vulnerability.
The love for yourself is not a selfish love. It is a love that contains a profound wisdom and intelligence in which creates a state of clarity and therefore self-satisfaction, free from a conflict need. You lack the "need" of a love that is asserted to be your fulfillment because that area inside has already been fulfilled by you. We live inside of a society of where there are liars, disloyal and vicious human beings who will take their madness to their graves before they free themselves from their infliction's they put upon others with an admittance that they were dead wrong of their actions. But, to be able to remain kind to them without effort or any preconditions, shows them that you are a survivor; and that what they committed against you, you have left them with the pain they have inflicted upon you as it consistently manifest in their lives because it is no longer in yours. You have allowed yourself to heal. You are still able to have the compassion to love and to be free of the fear of loving someone else. In this victory your internal self has won its most greatest battle against you. You have "decided" to allow yourself to heal in embracing the time of endurance, to let go of the past to the intensity that you are able to move forwards without any immense animosity, no duality. You are free and you are still that which you were created to be. A loving and compassionate creation of The Divine.
David Anthony Brayboy
The love for yourself is not a selfish love. It is a love that contains a profound wisdom and intelligence in which creates a state of clarity and therefore self-satisfaction, free from a conflict need. You lack the "need" of a love that is asserted to be your fulfillment because that area inside has already been fulfilled by you. We live inside of a society of where there are liars, disloyal and vicious human beings who will take their madness to their graves before they free themselves from their infliction's they put upon others with an admittance that they were dead wrong of their actions. But, to be able to remain kind to them without effort or any preconditions, shows them that you are a survivor; and that what they committed against you, you have left them with the pain they have inflicted upon you as it consistently manifest in their lives because it is no longer in yours. You have allowed yourself to heal. You are still able to have the compassion to love and to be free of the fear of loving someone else. In this victory your internal self has won its most greatest battle against you. You have "decided" to allow yourself to heal in embracing the time of endurance, to let go of the past to the intensity that you are able to move forwards without any immense animosity, no duality. You are free and you are still that which you were created to be. A loving and compassionate creation of The Divine.
David Anthony Brayboy
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